As I mentioned in my Week 1 Results post on Sunday, the workshop topic this week at WW is all about knowing your “why.” Naturally, everyone’s why for the reason they joined WW is going to be different. For some, it’s vanity. For others, it’s health. There is no right or wrong why because it’s deeply personal to each individual. Today, I thought I would share my why for recommitting to WW.
My why definitely falls more into the “for health” category than for vanity’s sake. As I’m getting older, the years of carrying all the excess weight have caught up with me. If I want to enjoy my retirement years, it’s time to turn things around.
Over the past two and half years, I’ve suffered two bilateral pulmonary embolisms (blood clots in the lungs). Doctors have been unable to pinpoint any specific cause of the clots, but did let me know obesity can definitely be a contributing factor of blood “thickening” which can result in clots. Being sedentary can also be a contributing factor. Considering I’m extremely obese and live a mostly sedentary lifestyle, I definitely wasn’t helping myself in terms of avoiding blood clots.
On top of the clotting issues, I was also diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes about 18 months ago. After initially receiving the diagnosis, I really took it to heart and made changes in my eating and lifestyle. Both of my parents are diabetic and I didn’t want a future of potentially becoming insulin dependent. Unfortunately, over time, my initial motivation waned and I went back to my old ways. My numbers have just crept higher and higher. If I don’t do something soon, it might be too late for me to try and gain control of my diabetes in the future.
The final health-related issue in my “why” is gout (a form of arthritis) in my right ankle. I was diagnosed three or four years ago. For a while, the medication I took kept it mostly under control. Over the past couple of years though, it doesn’t seem to be controlling it as well. There are times it’s extremely painful for me to even walk, much less try to exercise. Losing weight will definitely help. The less weight I carry, the less pressure my ankle has to bear which results in less pain.
Even though I definitely have some major health-related whys, there is definitely a certain amount of vanity in there, too. I’m tired of buying clothes online because I can’t shop in normal stores. I’m tired of usually being the fattest person in a room. I’m tired of wondering whether or not a chair will hold me. I’m tired of getting sick and not feeling well more than the average person. I’m tired of carrying the equivalent weight of a grown man around on my body all the time. I’m just tired … and I’m done.
That’s my why. Until next time …