Ok, so I know I just posted about a half hour ago, but I was just reading an email from a very dear friend of mine in Nashville. She has been my friend for (*gasp*) 17 years and has been with me through a lot. She said something in her email that really gave me pause to think, so I thought I would share it here:
“Sometimes I wish that I could erase my friends hurtful pasts but then they wouldn’t be the person that I love! The experiences that they had are what make them what and who they are today.”
Now, this isn’t the first time I’ve heard something similar to this, but I think I had really lost touch with it during everything I’ve gone through recently. I have been through quite a bit in my life, but she’s right, it’s because of those collected experiences & events that I am the person that I am today. While I hate some of the things I’ve been through, in one sense, I need to embrace them realizing they have molded me into who I am now.
As much as I have bitched lately about things, please know that I DO like who I am as a person, for the most part, at this point in my life. Yes, I do wish some things were different, but they are pretty much all external things (losing weight, finishing school, etc.) and not the internal things any more.
So, my dear friend (and you know who you are), thank you for always being there for me, caring about me, and blessing my life through the joy of knowing you. Meeting you all those years ago at the office in Nashville was the beginning of me turning my life around, dealing with my past, and not taking the bullshit any longer. I love you and you will ALWAYS hold a very special place in my heart!
